So I've been back for about two or so weeks.
It's weird.
Like nothing ever changed.
My classmates barely notice my presence... as usual.
They all act the exact same as before I left................
I feel like a painting in a museum ... when you arrive, you're interesting, but people quickly bore.
Eventually, you're just a painting on another wall of a gallery. People may stop once in a while to look, but more or less, you're just old news to them.
Some people did change though.
just not in the way I expected.
not personality wise.
Most classmates grew out their hair, or perhaps have a deeper voice.
Many students who were to my shoulders when I left, are taller than me.
They may not be different, but I feel as though I have changed.
I feel as though I am more independent, more assertive, possibly more brave.
Really, all I want are people who are at least a bit interested in me and what I am.
My friends are, sure, but there isn't anyone I can really VENT to. My best outlet is this blog....
I don't have anyone to hold me when I cry
I don't have anyone who understands the experiences I've been through.
I just feel so alone. I haven't felt this alone in a long time....
Why can't I just get over all this and move on?
Why do these thoughts keep on muddling with my brain?
I just want to move on.
•Cranberry•
1 comment:
Hang in there Issy. Don't worry about what everyone else thinks. Be true to yourself. Be the kind, loving, talented person you are forget about the jerks. Not knowing you is their loss not yours. Hugs, bobi
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